Lower Manhattan (Shelley’s Story)
The
day started as any other ordinary workday with clear blue skies. I took the bus
to work, went inside the WTC concourse to get the paper, and picked up my
coffee from the same place and from the same guy where I’ve gone for six years.
The guy said, “See you tomorrow.”
I had already been at work for almost an hour,
and was on the phone with my friend and colleague Barbara, just a few minutes
before 9:00 a.m., when the building shook violently. It was as if some big thing pushed the
building in [which of course it did] and then it bounced back. It’s hard to say
how long it shook, just seconds most likely, but it was unbelievably scary. Our
thoughts ran from explosion to earthquake, to a small plane hitting the
building, but we didn’t know the truth. I thought the building was going to
collapse then, but amazingly, it did not.
My assistant, Maria, and I were stunned. We knew
something bad had happened and that we should get out of there. We grabbed our
purses, and she left right away, but I wanted to see what was going on. I walked down the hallway and noticed that debris
was flying past the windows from the floors above. A couple of pictures had
fallen, smashing the glass, and the water in the toilet had spilled out onto
the floor, but everything else seemed okay. I went back to my office, and in my
practical nature, I grabbed a bottle of water and some Hershey’s kisses (in
case we felt faint after going down the stairs). Also, since I didn’t know how long we’d be
gone, I turned off the computers and the lights, and closed the door. I had a
computer backup tape in my purse, which I carried out of the building and back
to work every day. Legend has it that I thought to grab the backup tape, or
even better went back to get it, but it was in the most practical place it
could be -- in my purse. And, for all those who know me, or even those who
don’t, yes, I went to the bathroom before I left, knowing it could be quite a
while before I had a chance to go again.
I also called my sister, Elissa, who lives in midtown Manhattan, to tell
her I was fine and we were leaving. I had also spoken to my fiancé, Tom, after
the building stopped shaking. He told me
the building was burning, but it just didn’t register.
Meanwhile, back in New Jersey
News did not travel as quickly back
then, before the days of Twitter and widespread social media use. As I entered the building
where my office was located, I realized that most of the people on campus remained
unaware that a national emergency was occurring a few miles away. I turned on
the radio in my office and discovered that the Emergency Broadcast System had
been activated. Looking back, I think that for me, hearing the Emergency
Broadcast System was one of the most traumatic things about that day. I had
gone my entire life hearing that tone on television and radio stations followed
by the statement, “this has been a TEST
of the emergency broadcast system,” but this time, the tone kept sounding repeatedly,
and it was not a test. I was so overwhelmed by the fact that this was an actual
emergency requiring the use of this system, that I couldn’t even focus on the
announcements that followed. I just remember thinking holy shit, this is real and it must be bad. And then, suddenly, I
was very concerned about Shelley. Where was she?
Back Inside 1 World Trade Center
Then we headed down the fire stairs, Mary, Wayne, and I, and hundreds of other
people. It was quite orderly and calm,
no panicked running, but we kept up a good clip. We had heard on the radio that
a plane had crashed into the building, but it wasn’t until we were halfway down
that we heard the news that TWO planes had been hijacked by terrorists and had
crashed into both World Trade Center Towers.
I thought I had felt a rumble while we were walking down, but was not
aware until much later that the second plane hit while we were in the
stairwell. Still, none of this really registered though, it was too surreal and
we were just concentrating on getting out of the building.
The walk down the stairs took about 45
minutes, and there was water rushing through the stairwell on the last couple
of floors. There were dozens of police officers, firemen, and other official
personnel directing everyone out of the building, and it seemed they had the
situation under control. It is
distressing to think of what happened to all the people who were trying to help
us. They were urging us on, telling us they knew we were tired but had to keep
going and to please move as quickly as we could. My memory has them in a big
long line kind of handing us off from one to the next to keep us moving and
encourage us. We came out onto the
mezzanine level of 1 World Trade Center, and that’s when we were first really
hit with the enormity of the situation. The plaza was covered with rubble,
windows were broken and there were bodies within the rubble.
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Shelley Lebeck at her office on the 44th floor of 1 WTC |
The officials sent us down to the main floor,
also covered in water, with water dripping from all kinds of places. We went
through the revolving doors into the concourse, which had water raining down
from above us for several feet, plus water on the floor. My shoes were soaked
at this point, which made it more difficult to move quickly. After getting
through the concourse, they headed us out past the PATH train escalators,
around a corner, up another escalator, and out to the street. They were urging
us to move faster now, and I thought that was plenty scary. Up until then, just
concentrating on getting down the stairs and being inside kept us ‘in the dark’
so to speak (there were lights in the stairwell, fortunately), but this urgency
was another dose of reality, after the rubble and bodies.
We walked over a couple of blocks, and met up
with another one of our colleagues, Rosalie, but we lost Wayne in the stream of people.
It turned out that everyone in my office and the NYSSA offices got out okay.
They kept urging people to keep moving, and Mary, Rosalie, and I kept walking
north. We could only stop and look briefly to see the two fires, one in the
middle of 2 WTC and one higher up in 1 WTC.
At that point, we still didn’t really know what had happened, and were
speculating on how long it would be before we got back in the building.
In Midtown Manhattan
Shelley’s sister, Elissa Lebeck, who also
grew up in Harvel, moved to NYC around 1960. She lives on the east side of
Manhattan one block off 42nd street, near the United Nations
building. On that morning, Elissa happened to be outside on her terrace when
she noticed a silver, low-flying plane heading south over Manhattan. She went
back inside, and a few minutes later heard the news that a plane had hit the
World Trade Center. She was relieved to hear from Shelley right away and continued
watching the news in disbelief. When the second plane hit, she went out on her
terrace and could see the smoke in lower Manhattan, about four miles away from
her apartment. For the next several hours, she stayed in her apartment with Shelley’s
fiancé, Tom, near the phone, hoping for an update from Shelley. After both
towers had fallen and hours had passed with no word from Shelley, they feared
the worst. Did she make it out of the building? And even if she did make it
out, would she have had enough time to leave the area before the buildings collapsed? Elissa tried to keep busy by fielding phone calls from concerned relatives and friends, and ironing linen tablecloths and napkins that she had washed after a dinner party the week before.
Harvel, Illinois
Back at home on the Lebeck farm near
Harvel, my sister, Susan, was busy helping the kids get ready for school, and Tim
was outside working on the combine in preparation for the upcoming harvest
season. They had no idea about the attacks in New York until Shelley’s fiancĂ©,
Tom, called. They watched the news for a while, and then Tim went back to work,
checking in periodically for updates. They were both watching when the south
tower collapsed, and that’s when Tim told Susan he thought he just lost his
sister. He went back outside and tried to keep busy while Susan waited by the
phone for news about Shelley.
Back in New Jersey
I finally got through to Mom and Sue. There were still no updates on
Shelley. We kept the conversation brief so we didn’t tie up the phone lines. At
that time, Paul and I were living 15 miles from Ground Zero and we had an
eleven-month-old baby at home who was staying with his sister. I left work
and found myself in traffic that was even worse than earlier that morning. It
seemed everyone was driving slowly and gawking at the black smoke billowing
into the sky from lower Manhattan.I realized that I was low on gas and
didn’t have any cash. After becoming accustomed to living in a city with 24 gas
stations on almost every corner and ATMs/banks everywhere in sight, I was never
concerned about running out of gas or not having access to money. On that
morning, many gas stations closed due to the news, and the ones that remained
open were unable to process ATM and credit card transactions due to the failure
of the communication systems. I immediately thought of my dad who rarely let the
gas gauge go below the halfway mark, and always kept a folded $50 bill in a
special compartment of his wallet. I could just picture him shaking his head at
my predicament. I was on fumes when I finally arrived at home, but I made it.
Baby Jonathan was happy and blissfully unaware of the tragedy that was
unfolding across the river, and I picked him up and hugged him tight. I think I
carried him around on my hip for the rest of that day.
Downtown Manhattan
Not
too long after we were safely over by City Hall (this is normally about a 5
minute walk but was at least 10-15 minutes with the crowds), we looked back to
see the top third of 2 WTC topple off. A
huge cloud of dust and debris started working its way up the street so we moved
even faster to get away from it. We kept walking, stopping a few blocks later
to rest and get a soda at a deli. We had no idea that the whole building came
down, and while we were in the deli, WTC 1 must have collapsed as well. We could
see nothing but smoke, and were far enough away that other buildings blocked
our view, so we wouldn’t have been able to see the WTC buildings even if they
were still standing.
It was so frustrating not to be able to let Elissa
and Tom know that I was okay. All the
pay phones had big lines and cell phones were not working; besides I didn’t
even have a cell phone at that time. My thought was just to get the heck home, and
fortunately, I lived right in the city and had that option. All the subways and
trains were completely shut down. There were ambulances and police cars all
over the place heading downtown to the scene, but no other vehicles. At one
point, Mary, Rosalie, and I separated when Rosalie decided to try to catch a bus
to Queens, and Mary was going to wait at the train station until the trains started
running to New Jersey again. There were people in line for every pay phone so I
kept trudging home. It was a few miles, and being a bit out of shape for a long
walk, I was really struggling at the end. I was also getting more anxious as
time went by, knowing that people were so very worried about what had happened.
Near the corner of my apartment building, I tried one last time to call Tom, but
the call didn’t go through. I got upstairs to the apartment and Tom wasn’t
there. He was supposed to go to a meeting in Connecticut, so I thought he had left
before he knew what had happened. I tried to call my sister but the phones were
dead. It was unbelievable to me that I made it home safe and sound, yet I couldn’t
let anyone know!
I went next door to see if the neighbor’s
phone was working, but it wasn’t. She
had the news on and I sat there for a while and drank a glass of water while
she filled me in on what had actually happened. At that point, it was almost
noon and I had been out of the building since just after 9:00 a.m. and was just
finding out what really happened. When she told me that both buildings had
collapsed, I could not even begin to believe the possibility of that. Later, I
found out that the first plane hit 1 WTC at 8:48 a.m., and another plane hit 2
WTC about 20 minutes later. 2 WTC
collapsed at 10:00 a.m. and 1 WTC collapsed around 10:30 a.m. During that time,
the Pentagon was also hit and Flight 93 went down near Shanksville PA.
I went back to my apartment to lie down and
relish in the safety of my own little snug, quiet, safe place. Just as I was
trying to decide what to do and how to let my sister know I was okay, which
would have involved walking another couple of miles, amazingly, the phone
rang. That is one of the many mysteries
of the day -- I was not able to call out but Tom got through and let me know he
was waiting with Elissa at her apartment. The two of them were extremely glad
to hear my voice (understatement of the year). Tom started home, and Elissa
said she would call everyone and tell them the news. Luckily, I was able to receive
calls, because soon my brother, Alan, called from New Mexico, and my brother, Tim,
called from Illinois. Then, being the
practical person that I am, I went out to buy milk and cat food. I had so many
calls from people who said they were hoping I was okay, and I have very warm
feelings knowing there are so many people who cared. Only as I watched the
continuous news coverage did I slowly start to realize how very, very lucky I
am to be alive.
Midtown Manhattan
Elissa and Tom were elated to find out
that Shelley was safely at home. Tom left to go home immediately and Elissa called
relatives and friends while baking cookies to take over to the nearby fire
department, Engine 21, on 41st Street. She didn’t know it at the
time, but the Engine 21 Captain, William “Billy” Burke, whom she knew from the
neighborhood, had been killed that morning when he arrived on the scene in
lower Manhattan. Elissa said that other than worrying
about Shelley's fate, one of the most memorable things about that day was hearing the
sirens of all the firetrucks that crossed into Manhattan via the 59th
Street Bridge and the Midtown Tunnel. She remembers hearing the sirens throughout the entire day as truck after truck arrived from cities and towns all across the tristate area. Everyone wanted to help.
Final Thoughts from New Jersey
In the days following the attack on
the WTC, it was shocking to learn that the 911 terrorists were walking among us
in plain sight. A group of them had rented a car for their drive to the airport
from a car dealership that was located within a 5-minute walk from my office on
the WP campus. They also used computers in our university library, which were
later confiscated by the FBI, and they lived together in an apartment a few
blocks away from where I currently reside.
The first time we went to Manhattan
following the attacks was the weekend of 9/22-23 for dinner at Elissa’s to
celebrate Shelley and Tom’s birthdays. It was both scary and comforting to see
the police in full riot gear armed with assault rifles at the entrances to the
Lincoln Tunnel and on the corners of the busy intersections. The smell of
burning rubble still filled the city. I had a feeling that things would never
be the same again, and I was right.
A special thanks to Shelley Lebeck for
allowing me access to her notes and for being willing to share her experience
of being a World Trade Center Survivor. She is currently happily retired and
living with her husband, Tom, in Columbus, Ohio. Elissa still resides in New York in the Tudor
City neighborhood, near the United Nations building.